Lately I have been thinking more and more about what it means to enjoy being physically active. You see, I never get endorphin highs from exercising. Even a great yoga class does not bring me to that point. I also used to get awful headaches and rolling nausea post-exercise, despite being hydrated, having eaten enough, but not too soon before working out, and all the other things one is supposed to do to not get headaches. In hindsight, those were likely tied to sinus issues, as the headaches have gotten better this year, likely because of cutting out certain foods – at this point, I get some headaches but they are better, and the nausea is also better, so there is some improvement. That said, between the headaches, the no-endorphins, and an element of natural lazyness (given a free 2 hour period, i would rather go for a long walk than go to the gym, but really, I would rather be curled up with a magazine than think about going for a walk) exercise is completely unattractive to me.
When people tell me how much they enjoy exercising, I find myself wondering what it is they feel or see I do not. And I have worked on liking moving physically, other than walking (which I love) for a long time. One of the things I have learned is that yoga is very much a gateway for me to want to exercise (usually, a few weeks of sustained yoga make me want to run or try other exercises, but if not, my logic is that I am still doing yoga and therefore moving). Another thing I have relied on over the years to exercise is group classes (mainly for yoga, but also for other things like pilates and cross-training classes) – but with my current work schedule, that is not as much of an option.
The biggest change I have felt shifting in myself in recent years is that I am slowly accepting the fact that building more of a home yoga practice is not just a good idea, but pretty much the only idea, if I am going to conquer all the above feelings. Ironically, part of the reason I keep resisting it is that I have several wonderful yoga studios within mere minutes of my apartment. But, those lovely studios are not much use when my schedule does not allow me to go often.
So for my wishcasting this Wednesday, I wish to stretch physically, first through more yoga, both at home and at studios, and eventually through other forms of exercise.